If any of you have followed my blog, you will have noticed that I've been absent from my post for quite a long time.
I am now at that two-weeks to marathon time, and having a bit of a panic. When I signed up for the Portland Marathon, I didn't have a full time teaching position and had a whole bunch of time to train.
Since I signed up, I got a new job. Hallelujah! We sold our house. Hallelujah! And then…I simultaneously moved a home and a classroom, cleaned, painted, and nested both home and classroom, and then started teaching an eager little bunch of five-year-olds! Again, can I get a Hallelujah up in here! This is all tremendously great news, but it put a serious kibosh on my training.
So – the run is in two weeks and I’ve had a lot of soul searching, and sole searching to do. I don’t feel ready at all, but I feel obligated. I said I would do something, and people donated to my cause – the Children’s Cancer Association – in good faith that I would do what I said I would do. Now I’m sitting in a big old bunch of dilemma.
I talked to the folks at CCA – and they are thrilled with me already – I have raised the most money for this event of anyone participating. So that’s good. They told me I could do whatever I felt necessary. I could run, walk or drag myself as far as possible. OR I could decide mid-run to take the turnoff for the half marathon. OR I could be happy with my fundraising and not do the run.
That last one doesn’t sit well with me because I have a conscience. The reality is I may very well end up doing a half marathon instead of the full, but I also know what a stubborn person I can be when I have made up my mind to do something. So…I may very well walk and drag myself to the finish of 26.2 miles. I won’t know til I get there. It will be a surprise to even me. I know I’m leaning toward pushing through no matter what.
I have signed up for a fun run next Saturday at Portland International Raceway. The Happiest 5-K On The Planet! We will be in town helping our daughter move, so I thought – what the heck. I need some fun, and color in my life! J